March 2, 2006

• i’m so done with this..i want my life
  normal again …. just work and school.. and that’s it.. umm yeah.. i
  was so over this agc thing last year and i’m so sorry that it had to
  happen again.

  i never did anything during our relationship with anyone else
  i just didin’t whether or not you believe me that’s your decision

  anyway! you’re right it wouldn’t have worked out with the distance
  anyway , we’re just at very different points in our lives right now..
  and as of 1:45 am i’ve come to accept that. 

  I’m sorry for me being immature and rash in my judgment and i’m glad
  one of us was strong enough to realize that it wasn’t working
  out.  so thank you for that. It was getting in the way of my and
  your schoolwork and my work and I never realized how insane i was
  getting but in retrospect i know that i dont ever want to be like that
  again.  i don’ t doubt you anymore i really don’t and i’m sorry it
  ended this way. We really did throw a bunch of ingredients into a pot
  hoping something would happen when really it was so wrong from the
  beginning

  but i won’ tadmit to what other people are saying because i know its
  not true and that’s all that matters even if you can’t believe that-
  but how can i expect you to… its like asking you to blindly trust
  me.. and i know you can’t do that

  you were a good boyfriend and i’m sorry for all the things ive said and
  how quick i was to judge you on your past. i don’ t doubt you anymore-
  i’m just really sorry we ended this way you take all the time you
  need… i only needed that one phone conversation to realize how crazy
  i was getting so that’s all the time i needed.. when you’re ready to be
  civil and have our intelligent conversations again as just friends let
  me know =) until then you lead your life and i can lead mine and maybe
  we need to mature a bit more i dont know whatever it was i cherished
  the memories and i regret it not working out.

  hopefully we’ll both be happier now

  • 4:58 am
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