SIGHHHHHHH…. i’m in love

the only thing i’ve been thinking about… a purse… the last time this happened.. i got my gucci purse…so before i used to hate louis vuitton right? i mean come on. its ugly.. just lv lv lv lv.. its like.. alright i get it.. louis really likes his name and well.. it just looks like granny bags.. buuuttttt then one day… i walked in and lo and behold saw the cutest thing ever! its like.. SOOO ADORABLE! .. lorraine hates it.. but i LOVE IT!

so its the velvet chain pochette.. and i’m so like.. wow.. its so different.. its like.. not… brown..and what makes me like it even more? its a limited edition why must they torture me so… its cuz i’ve been bagging on louis vuitton forever and ever calling it ugly and stuff..and just to spite me… they come out with something sooo cute that i’m obsessing over it.. crazy huh

ewwwww norcal weather today… so i woke up all gloomy and sad and COLD cuz well.. the weather was just like… eck!!! EWWWWYYY gross hehe.. but yeah bad instances just turned to worse and worse and worse.. and dear lord!and well… then you just gotta let it out and cry to someone about it consolation comes from the strangest sources.. and then its alll goood.  go duke it out at work.. get some sense smacked into you from your coworker. like literally smacked into you.. i’m so bruised =(

woe is me

even though he did beat the shit out of me in the process he is -  THE MOST AWESOME COWORKER EVER-!!!! who says i can’t be friends with my ex’s friends still and confide in them? APPARENTL:Y  everyone else does.  he bought me uggs … UGGS!!! how the heck did he know i wanted uggs!?!!? crazy huh… early bday present i guess. .but yeah.. i love em love em loveeee em! yay! my winter wardrobe is halfway done… yippee for no more walking to class with wet flipflops and soaking shoes.  so my coworker and i had the longest talk today.. and i’ve concluded.. the most unattractive thing next to smoking.. is a selfish manipulative guy with ulterior motives.. he concluded… the most unattractive thing in a girl is a high maintenance gold digger whom ur parents hate haha hopefully none of this is from personal experience.?? idon’t know. i can’t speak for both of us.. wats with everyone dating money loving girls these days.. is that like the new trend? seriously.. why would a girl rely on a guy so much isn’t it so much easier to let go when you don’t depend on him dependence = vulnerability.. nooo thank you? So deanna commented on something that i think has a really good point

oxytocin!  this chemical we all have… girls tend to have it more than guys… that’s why we hang on to things and relationships for so long- shall we say… emtional attachment -.. and guys don’t have nearly enough they only have elevated levels of oxytocin when theyre in physical contact with an object.. which is why.. guys need the physical part of the relationship and girls.. well we can seroiusly care less right?  anyway… guys who don’t hold on and get sad over a girl leaving them probalby have lower levels of oxytocin.. and those that stay.. well they either have high levels or they benefit in another way by staying… they just pretend that they don’t -denial- who knows?  and why pine over someone who doesn’t feel the same way or says he does but really doesn’t tell everyone the same story? is he embarrassed or does he stilll pine over that last ex who broke his heart.. oh boo hoo.. cry me a river.. once again.. -denial- hmm.. i really wonder… early wrinkles? pleaseee… not worth it. girl .. just get over it…. if he cant get through his dense head how freakin lucky he is.. and how he’s never going to have anything as perfect as you.. then you know what?? i hope he enjoys a life of misery and thinking about what could have been.. but he chose something else first.. girlfriend second.. what an idiot. what guys don’t understand is that finding a good girl is like .. finding  a needle in a haystack.. sure.. girls might come with  money.. but come on.. eventually people get old nadugly and unattractive.. who wants an ugly old rich guy? let’s face it.. asian men don’t age gracefully hmm? only the girls who are more interested and oogling ur wallet than getting lost within your eyes.. but hey.. who am i to judge.. i guess some guys just don’t care.. so for those that don’t.. let them go.. find someone who appreciates you for everything that you are… i really should take my own advice sometimes.. but lately.. i think i have.. cleared the head a bit.. and now.. well .we’ll see.. planning for the future messes everything up doesn’t it… just live for the moment..and don’t expect anything… why set yourself up for disapointment especially since its inevitable my summer motto=) i’m liking it

annnnd by the way.. the beta party was fun i met jiun.. my adorable lil bro’s adorable little japanese friend.. yuki or soemthing? i don’t kow but all of us wanted to just shove him into our pockets and run off with the little boy.. sooo small and cute! he can drink.. omg.. strawberry soju??? delicious!

nvd i take it back… the lucky boys of 424 landfair… and yes let me emphasize LUCKY theyre so useful.. they take out the trash, cook for us be it breakfast or dinner, drive from socal to norcal and then back or vice versa on whim just to see us, wash our dishes, install stuff like bathroom appliances, semi fix our toilet, paint our walls, fix round disk chair things, hook our friends up with their friends, bring over a million seasons of nip tuck,  subject themselves to the girlish gossip that pervades the apt, constantly makes efforts to get to know all the girls….

hmm well aside from all their wonderful qualities it just boils down to the fact that these  lucky few get to  cook clean,  take out the trash,  and spoil the heck out of us while we go to work and school how awesome is that some are official.. and some aren’t it doesn’t matter… the title really menas nothing but.. all in all… theyre ours

so what if they whine a bit.. its kinda cute did i mention how incredibly fortunate they are? of course this goes both ways.. getting to know the friends and family cooking .. all in all.. everything’s working out well which just goes to justify my former argument… the title… hehe who needs it

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my conclusion that i drew while reading up on econ, which goes to show how much i’m concentrating.. external drama comes from dating.. or namely with guys… its true… no boyfriend = no drama with boyfriend’s exs..or creepy stalker girls or ur boy’s seemingly nice girl friends but they are actually creepy stalker girls in disguise the list goes on and on .. but what can you do? some girls are just … well…. bored.   Therefore… i’m resigned to my happy single life no relationship means not having to deal with the extra baggage of someone else’s life and why stress about it… it just makes you age faster turn all shrively and pruney and that’s no good.  Being single for this long.. sure having a guy around is fun and all you grow you learn blah blah blah… but do you really need it? not really…relationships … sigh.. soo overrated…what i never really understood until now…why bother? when the right guy comes along who can stand me berating them about morals and drugs and no this no that and still be sane.. then wow.. props to him.. but until then

six months and counting hehe

i think its a new record…

i LIKE it