September 15, 2006

• ewwwww norcal weather today… so i woke up all gloomy and sad and COLD cuz well.. the weather was just like… eck!!! EWWWWYYY gross hehe.. but yeah bad instances just turned to worse and worse and worse.. and dear lord!and well… then you just gotta let it out and cry to someone about it consolation comes from the strangest sources.. and then its alll goood.  go duke it out at work.. get some sense smacked into you from your coworker. like literally smacked into you.. i’m so bruised =(

  woe is me

  even though he did beat the shit out of me in the process he is -  THE MOST AWESOME COWORKER EVER-!!!! who says i can’t be friends with my ex’s friends still and confide in them? APPARENTL:Y  everyone else does.  he bought me uggs … UGGS!!! how the heck did he know i wanted uggs!?!!? crazy huh… early bday present i guess. .but yeah.. i love em love em loveeee em! yay! my winter wardrobe is halfway done… yippee for no more walking to class with wet flipflops and soaking shoes.  so my coworker and i had the longest talk today.. and i’ve concluded.. the most unattractive thing next to smoking.. is a selfish manipulative guy with ulterior motives.. he concluded… the most unattractive thing in a girl is a high maintenance gold digger whom ur parents hate haha hopefully none of this is from personal experience.?? idon’t know. i can’t speak for both of us.. wats with everyone dating money loving girls these days.. is that like the new trend? seriously.. why would a girl rely on a guy so much isn’t it so much easier to let go when you don’t depend on him dependence = vulnerability.. nooo thank you? So deanna commented on something that i think has a really good point

  oxytocin!  this chemical we all have… girls tend to have it more than guys… that’s why we hang on to things and relationships for so long- shall we say… emtional attachment -.. and guys don’t have nearly enough they only have elevated levels of oxytocin when theyre in physical contact with an object.. which is why.. guys need the physical part of the relationship and girls.. well we can seroiusly care less right?  anyway… guys who don’t hold on and get sad over a girl leaving them probalby have lower levels of oxytocin.. and those that stay.. well they either have high levels or they benefit in another way by staying… they just pretend that they don’t -denial- who knows?  and why pine over someone who doesn’t feel the same way or says he does but really doesn’t tell everyone the same story? is he embarrassed or does he stilll pine over that last ex who broke his heart.. oh boo hoo.. cry me a river.. once again.. -denial- hmm.. i really wonder… early wrinkles? pleaseee… not worth it. girl .. just get over it…. if he cant get through his dense head how freakin lucky he is.. and how he’s never going to have anything as perfect as you.. then you know what?? i hope he enjoys a life of misery and thinking about what could have been.. but he chose something else first.. girlfriend second.. what an idiot. what guys don’t understand is that finding a good girl is like .. finding  a needle in a haystack.. sure.. girls might come with  money.. but come on.. eventually people get old nadugly and unattractive.. who wants an ugly old rich guy? let’s face it.. asian men don’t age gracefully hmm? only the girls who are more interested and oogling ur wallet than getting lost within your eyes.. but hey.. who am i to judge.. i guess some guys just don’t care.. so for those that don’t.. let them go.. find someone who appreciates you for everything that you are… i really should take my own advice sometimes.. but lately.. i think i have.. cleared the head a bit.. and now.. well .we’ll see.. planning for the future messes everything up doesn’t it… just live for the moment..and don’t expect anything… why set yourself up for disapointment especially since its inevitable my summer motto=) i’m liking it

  annnnd by the way.. the beta party was fun i met jiun.. my adorable lil bro’s adorable little japanese friend.. yuki or soemthing? i don’t kow but all of us wanted to just shove him into our pockets and run off with the little boy.. sooo small and cute! he can drink.. omg.. strawberry soju??? delicious!

   

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