hmm math 31B isn’t as bad as everyone says it is… sadly doing the problems are kinda fun or maybe its cuz i like going to class and being a little twit right in the front yay attention attention hehe.. whine whine whine.. math is much more mind stimulating than reading about economic theory… zzzzzzzz …… that was me in econ 152 class.. my head tilted back mouth wide open and droool… hehe so attractive huh… i’m surprised no one tried to aim anytihng at my mouth.. oh well but then again.. it has only been the first two weeks maybe that class will pick up later? dunno maybe if my idiot professor would stop coming to lecture late, high, and with his old school stunna shades.. i might actually enjoy his mindless ramblings .   he seriously looks like a very very old druggy.. he was probably  hehe but my professor is like.. such a dork its so adorable he fits the description of N-E-R-D glasses, pocket protector.. everything hehe.. its sooo cute

BIG BRO !!! i blame you for my predicament right now- its so sad.. this week is like.. totally sucking.

sigh

on the bright side.. i made two new friends in the process and that’s always nice and comforting.  People who actually care about you.. the warm and fuzzy feeling is such a relief

anyhoo

awww we’re so cute! ok.. soo

here are rush pictures

here’s me and saery and thalia at luau… when i was winning and my hair was flying everywhere… I even  jacked saery’s chair muahahha but that was before Thalia stretched out her long sexy legs and owned me at the game.. I was so sad

ok now i’m somewhat happy again still traumatized.. but keke is stinking up my room with b.o. … grossss!!!! for a successful stock person.. who’s also homeless right now… he needs to shower and change! ewwwwwwwww hygiene! at this rate you’ll never be cuter! ehehe i win i win

Come with me, stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But boy you know your beggin don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game

So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help
Cause ya know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh

It's just too little, too late
Yeah

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

you think you know someone.. but then they turn out just like the rest if not worse 
how can one person house two such extreme personalities.  How do you look someone in the eye and just lie
like just flat out lie.. even when all the evidence is in front of you? seriously what kind of a person does tha


what a horrible week its been first the bumper and then some idiot broke my right mirror.. like.. its completely smashed.. i'm so sad

i'm sick =( and wahhhh 

SIGHHHHHHH…. i’m in love

the only thing i’ve been thinking about… a purse… the last time this happened.. i got my gucci purse…so before i used to hate louis vuitton right? i mean come on. its ugly.. just lv lv lv lv.. its like.. alright i get it.. louis really likes his name and well.. it just looks like granny bags.. buuuttttt then one day… i walked in and lo and behold saw the cutest thing ever! its like.. SOOO ADORABLE! .. lorraine hates it.. but i LOVE IT!

so its the velvet chain pochette.. and i’m so like.. wow.. its so different.. its like.. not… brown..and what makes me like it even more? its a limited edition why must they torture me so… its cuz i’ve been bagging on louis vuitton forever and ever calling it ugly and stuff..and just to spite me… they come out with something sooo cute that i’m obsessing over it.. crazy huh

ewwwww norcal weather today… so i woke up all gloomy and sad and COLD cuz well.. the weather was just like… eck!!! EWWWWYYY gross hehe.. but yeah bad instances just turned to worse and worse and worse.. and dear lord!and well… then you just gotta let it out and cry to someone about it consolation comes from the strangest sources.. and then its alll goood.  go duke it out at work.. get some sense smacked into you from your coworker. like literally smacked into you.. i’m so bruised =(

woe is me

even though he did beat the shit out of me in the process he is -  THE MOST AWESOME COWORKER EVER-!!!! who says i can’t be friends with my ex’s friends still and confide in them? APPARENTL:Y  everyone else does.  he bought me uggs … UGGS!!! how the heck did he know i wanted uggs!?!!? crazy huh… early bday present i guess. .but yeah.. i love em love em loveeee em! yay! my winter wardrobe is halfway done… yippee for no more walking to class with wet flipflops and soaking shoes.  so my coworker and i had the longest talk today.. and i’ve concluded.. the most unattractive thing next to smoking.. is a selfish manipulative guy with ulterior motives.. he concluded… the most unattractive thing in a girl is a high maintenance gold digger whom ur parents hate haha hopefully none of this is from personal experience.?? idon’t know. i can’t speak for both of us.. wats with everyone dating money loving girls these days.. is that like the new trend? seriously.. why would a girl rely on a guy so much isn’t it so much easier to let go when you don’t depend on him dependence = vulnerability.. nooo thank you? So deanna commented on something that i think has a really good point

oxytocin!  this chemical we all have… girls tend to have it more than guys… that’s why we hang on to things and relationships for so long- shall we say… emtional attachment -.. and guys don’t have nearly enough they only have elevated levels of oxytocin when theyre in physical contact with an object.. which is why.. guys need the physical part of the relationship and girls.. well we can seroiusly care less right?  anyway… guys who don’t hold on and get sad over a girl leaving them probalby have lower levels of oxytocin.. and those that stay.. well they either have high levels or they benefit in another way by staying… they just pretend that they don’t -denial- who knows?  and why pine over someone who doesn’t feel the same way or says he does but really doesn’t tell everyone the same story? is he embarrassed or does he stilll pine over that last ex who broke his heart.. oh boo hoo.. cry me a river.. once again.. -denial- hmm.. i really wonder… early wrinkles? pleaseee… not worth it. girl .. just get over it…. if he cant get through his dense head how freakin lucky he is.. and how he’s never going to have anything as perfect as you.. then you know what?? i hope he enjoys a life of misery and thinking about what could have been.. but he chose something else first.. girlfriend second.. what an idiot. what guys don’t understand is that finding a good girl is like .. finding  a needle in a haystack.. sure.. girls might come with  money.. but come on.. eventually people get old nadugly and unattractive.. who wants an ugly old rich guy? let’s face it.. asian men don’t age gracefully hmm? only the girls who are more interested and oogling ur wallet than getting lost within your eyes.. but hey.. who am i to judge.. i guess some guys just don’t care.. so for those that don’t.. let them go.. find someone who appreciates you for everything that you are… i really should take my own advice sometimes.. but lately.. i think i have.. cleared the head a bit.. and now.. well .we’ll see.. planning for the future messes everything up doesn’t it… just live for the moment..and don’t expect anything… why set yourself up for disapointment especially since its inevitable my summer motto=) i’m liking it

annnnd by the way.. the beta party was fun i met jiun.. my adorable lil bro’s adorable little japanese friend.. yuki or soemthing? i don’t kow but all of us wanted to just shove him into our pockets and run off with the little boy.. sooo small and cute! he can drink.. omg.. strawberry soju??? delicious!

nvd i take it back… the lucky boys of 424 landfair… and yes let me emphasize LUCKY theyre so useful.. they take out the trash, cook for us be it breakfast or dinner, drive from socal to norcal and then back or vice versa on whim just to see us, wash our dishes, install stuff like bathroom appliances, semi fix our toilet, paint our walls, fix round disk chair things, hook our friends up with their friends, bring over a million seasons of nip tuck,  subject themselves to the girlish gossip that pervades the apt, constantly makes efforts to get to know all the girls….

hmm well aside from all their wonderful qualities it just boils down to the fact that these  lucky few get to  cook clean,  take out the trash,  and spoil the heck out of us while we go to work and school how awesome is that some are official.. and some aren’t it doesn’t matter… the title really menas nothing but.. all in all… theyre ours

so what if they whine a bit.. its kinda cute did i mention how incredibly fortunate they are? of course this goes both ways.. getting to know the friends and family cooking .. all in all.. everything’s working out well which just goes to justify my former argument… the title… hehe who needs it

ehehehe

my conclusion that i drew while reading up on econ, which goes to show how much i’m concentrating.. external drama comes from dating.. or namely with guys… its true… no boyfriend = no drama with boyfriend’s exs..or creepy stalker girls or ur boy’s seemingly nice girl friends but they are actually creepy stalker girls in disguise the list goes on and on .. but what can you do? some girls are just … well…. bored.   Therefore… i’m resigned to my happy single life no relationship means not having to deal with the extra baggage of someone else’s life and why stress about it… it just makes you age faster turn all shrively and pruney and that’s no good.  Being single for this long.. sure having a guy around is fun and all you grow you learn blah blah blah… but do you really need it? not really…relationships … sigh.. soo overrated…what i never really understood until now…why bother? when the right guy comes along who can stand me berating them about morals and drugs and no this no that and still be sane.. then wow.. props to him.. but until then

six months and counting hehe

i think its a new record…

i LIKE it

sooo packing to get ready for my drive down to socal =D taking a  moment from vacuuming and cleaning up alex’s room… as much as i’ll miss waking up to his mounted pictures of black and white naked guys… and the sun coming through the window at 6 am… i ‘m going to miss this apt so much more.. connie at my wedding you can join maressa at the reception and bang gongs to make it more chinesy and yes wear the double happiness signs… ok soooo .. off i go! =Dweeeeee… watch me fall asleep on the road.. i slept in so much thanks to wonderful melinda who wanting me to drink more.. and finally i was like.. ok if i finish this whole will you quit smoking.. and she was like.. okok… and then. i finished it after.. she was like.. after august i will… sooo if she smokes in front of me.. i get to punch her in the face or make her do girly stuff like get facials with me.. =D unfortuantely melinda.. i don’t have ginormous boobs like urs to soak up all the alcohol hehe soooo i drove home.. and omg.. it took so much concentration to focus on the road and then some idiot kept trying to cut in front of me; however, my competitive side woudln’t let him in.. i think i was bitter over the fact that he had a cobra.. wahhh i want a cobra! anyway so jason kept me awake and sane on the phone.. until i coudln’t multitask anymore and then i went back talked on the phone some more until i started sleep talking and mumbling about some blonde girl which creeped him out a bit since i guess he’s never heard someone sleep talk on the phone.. hehe .. ohhh wellll

and i thought i ran into glen at the club.. and i was sooo certain it was glen.. melinda nad i were like.. Glen! but it was his twin brother ray.. i have to keep that in mind. i’m sure he’s sick of being called glen.. and ten i ran into michelle princess michelle hehe she looked so pretty and yeah that’s the gist of it.  It was fun until a certain point where i felt way too suffocated and nauseated by the massive amounts of dirty groping guys around me so …gave melinda and her friend a quick hug and peck on the cheek and went back to my car.  by the way. i have a newfound hatred for the streets of san fransisco.. all those one ways scared me sooo much! eek… i was lke.. why are there headlights coming at me.. and panicked and made the fastest u turn i’ve ever made in my life while my heart was pounding insanely fast.  ok time to get going!
yay for 424 landfair my new home! hehe

so as a farewell to me and maressa for the weekend us three decided to go out with the guys to a local club at berkeley.  I had gotten cocky about my id since sf was so lax about it i was like.. dood i got this… who needs to bust out heels to look 5’7″ or wear a buttload of makeup to look older? its fine.. so off we went to henry’s

when we got there maressa got in..buutttt the dude wouldn’t let me in..he scanned the id.. looked at me i recited everything.. but thenn.. this ass.. just reminded me of the security people at century.. he gets five thumbs up for being a total asshole. Since i didn’t want to get diana’s id taken away.. i went back to the apartment accompanied by maressa’s guy friend was it derek or chris? anyway… we walked back and it was ok cuuuzzz then i jumped right into bed and went on the phone but sadlyyyy… sommeeeonnnee had better things to look up online and said they’d call me back so i fell aslepp…. with the phone in my hand.. untilllllll
all hell broke loose and drunk girls/guys rushed into my room.. i had just woken up.. omg
it was like…
it was like this

sirina looks confused.. SHEE’S NICE! SHE DIDN’T BOMBARD MY BED


and here’s chris who took much delight in the fact that i was getting mauled by drunkards… seee i jussttt woke up! omg… too painful

as grumpy as i was initially i do love maressa haha… and she knows it.. i like how she’s going to miss my id more than she misses me!!

awwww. this summer has been so much fun !! connie as much as that figurine thing scares me … i’ll keep it.. hahah.. serously though.. it creeps the heck out of me.. so i’m wondering what the other figurines look like if this was the onlyh normal one

and THIS is what i missed out on that night… hmmmm

connie went and attacked everyone.. i’m assuminnggggggg there’s just a lot of roomate love here.. stop cheating on me maressa!!!! i don’t appreciate it!

and next! hehee.. tequila shots? this reminds me of what we did in mexico =)

YAY!!

Look at that lucky guy huh?

hmmm? i don’t like the hand thingysss!!!! too agc.. no no no stop it!

and it continues.onto the streets of berkeley

*squint squint

i’m going to have to say that this is THE maressa face when she takes pictures.. hehe like the shy demure but come hither at ur own risk face eheheh

AND HERE is back in my room

ehehe.. sorrryyy girls.. i’m exacting my revenge on you two for barging into my room and jumping on a peacefully sleeping c.dai.. and the pictures are beautiful… connie and maressa will probablly attempt to kill me once they see pictures are up… BUT ehehei’ll be in L.A. already… its so sad.. i’m going to miss living here a lot

“There is a reason your past didn’t make it into your present; for this reason he or she should not be a part of your future.”-CD

“Remember these three key words to a successful marriage – ‘Yes my dear’ ” -JY

… homie here knows what he’s talking about

ur not such a typical asian girl because ur not obsessed with having loads of expensive purses

i have like one expensive purse that’s enough besides =D i don’t need purses to make me look pretty muahahha jk – cd

yeah you need plastic surgery-JY

- cd

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh-cd